Thursday, May 31, 2012

Just some things

My appetite and energy are slowly coming back and I think everyone is my house is pretty excited about that. I know I am.

Watermelon shark Hudson and I carved. (thanks grandma Julie for the "brilliant" idea)

Strawberry tart we "threw" together in 2 days.

E had the balls to tell me the crust was a "little too thick." (See store bought birthday cake below.)

Rock picking.

Hike to Blacks Beach. Hudson had strep throat but we thought he was just being lazy. So....he walked.

Happy Birthday E! Homemade enchiladas + Baskin Robbins ice cream cake + a few new potted succulents = A happy E.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Holy Sh*# I'm pregnant. Part 1

The backstory:

There was a point in E's recovery, as he started to get better, where I started to wonder about the future. I started to wonder if having another child would ever be "in the cards" for us. We had gone back and forth on this subject before the brain injury and never came to a firm decision. I was pretty sure I wanted another but wasn't sure if it was going to be the best thing for our family, especially now with the brain injury "set back." The wonder and worry started plaguing me. So, one day, I went to get acupuncture as I often do. I had an hour to lay in the room by myself and I meditated, said a prayer, had a talk with the gods, if you will. I asked them for a sign (which I never do.) I wanted to know if another baby was in our future at some point, if it was a good idea. I no longer wanted the "burden" of having to make this decision. I wanted a clear sign, no grey area as so much of our life was a grey area at that point.

When I left, I felt relieved. I felt the message was received and I was so cleared out that I was starving and headed directly to a burrito shop to grab some lunch.

When I walked in, there were about 3 people in line in front of me, but directly in front of me, was a woman with long curly hair. It was Hudson's doula. The woman who was with us before, during and after the birth of my baby. I hadn't seen her since a few weeks after Hudson was born, over 4 years, as she moved to New Jersey. Well, she had just moved back and she just happened to pick this particular burrito shop on this particular day, at this particular time. Me too.

Call it a sign, call it a coincidence, call it a fluke, to me it was the only answer I needed and I never worried about if/when/how we would have another baby from that day on.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Coming out...

Hudson's announcement (click on this link)

We hate secrets. It was no accident. I'm due on Thanksgiving. The 3 of us are BEYOND excited. Excuse me while I go throw up now.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

A word to your mother.

There was nothing, I mean nothing, that prepared me for motherhood. It's not comparable to anything else. In the good moments, there is nothing as good. In the bad moments, well, you want to get in your car drive to the Maldives, but then you realize that is impossible so, you don't. Or maybe that's just me. Nonetheless, having Hudson in front of me every day, makes me want to be a better person, every day. For that, I am incredibly grateful.

Being a mom, is also a way of giving back to our own moms. From what I can tell, grandchildren are like "friends with benefits." ie) No strings attached other than a good time.

Happy Mother's Day, first and foremost to my mom Julie. Also to E's mom Dodie. You are our rocks. To all the other moms in our lives, their is a common thread amongst every mom I know and that is, unconditional love, for better or for worse.
As far as I am concerned, my mom is a princess fairy and a ninja wrapped in clean sheets and a home cooked meal and she NEVER runs out of toilet paper. That, to me, is pretty damn amazing.

Through the mommy eyes of my iPhone.....

Mothers day pancake breakfast at Hudson's pre-school.

Such great memories here. It will be missed.

The VW bus, turned into play structure at his school.

Grandma Julie and Hudson in Minnesota 2 summers ago.

Grandma Dodie and Hudson at our park, more than 2 summers ago.

Happy Mother's Day!

Sunday, May 6, 2012

It's the thought that counts.

We had a nice, pretty relaxing weekend. On Saturday we went to a couple of Cinco de Mayo BBQs with friends. No shortage of delicious Mexican food and good white people fun.

Today, we headed down to the farmers market. The sun finally came out this weekend which inspired us to actually leave the house on Sunday. The farmers market is just down the street at what will be Hudson's elementary school. He loves going there thinking about his next adventure (and eating fresh fruit and crushed ice drenched in corn syrup.)

Oh, and we made a cake (brownies.) This was inspired by a revelation that Hudson had early (6am) this morning. He woke me up and was ecstatic....

"Mom, I have the BEST idea for Mother's Day! Something VERY special!"

"Really? Great, what is it?"

"I want to make my dad a CAKE!"

Of course I tried to explain to him what Mothers day was, but he wasn't having it. His mind was already made up and he had even picked out the perfect cake to make out of our Birthday cake cook book. Pictured here.

Sweet Hudson. That looks like something we can just "whip up" real fast for DAD for Mother's day, today.

So, we improvised with this.

Ghiradelli chocolate/Carmel brownies. Out of a box.

What can I say, I always tell Hudson "you have to give, to get." So here you go E, Happy Mother's Day and don't forget about this next Sunday.